A quick frown

I know this is the blog "Things that make me smile" but today something happened and I need to get it out.

I got a call from a sister missionary stating that one of my close friends had given her my number because i was in a place where i needed to get "help" or whatever.

Normally a call like this wouldnt have bugged me, but in high school she was my friend she accepted me for me never pushed her religion on me and i never pushed my beliefs on her.

Since high school I have moved further away from any and all religions, and i know she knows. She was always the one best mormon friend I had that never tried to convert me. I feel betrayed for lack of a better word. She gave my number away knowing fully where I stand on this religion issue. I posted these lyrics on facebook:

"And following their rules is such a God foresaken bore, 
Now I say God because I'm programmed, 
But I believe in none"- The Noose Tech N9ne

And I think that contributed to her wanting to "help" me. But thats honestly how I feel. I am me, i believe in what i believe i do what i believe is morally right or i try my hardest to be the best Gabby I can be.

I think the reason i feel most betrayed is that she knows me, she accepted me for who i am and what i do, but now she doesnt. Am i a worse person? what happened where all of a sudden being me isnt good enough. Why cant people accept me for me. I think Im a decent person I think how i want to live my life is just fine. I have an AMAZING husband who loves me for me, the bestest of friends who remind me almost every day that they love me. 

I dont know how to even bring up to her how upset i feel that im not good enough the way i am, or that how i feel by having her betray me and give my number to a missionary. I understand she just got back from her mission and is getting temple married and is very up on her church i get it but it still upsets me deeply. 

I have no problem sharing my religious views with anyone, if they ask for them. Im not going to spew what i believe and why to strangers, i dont need to explain myself. All anyone needs to know is that i am agnostic, meaning I dont know what i am, i am discovering myself and where i belong. Some religions i know 100% i dont belong in. But I want to figure it out by myself, not have someone push me in the direction they want for me

I would really appreciate some feedback on how to handle the convo with my friend and what to tell the missionary when she calls again.